Leaving the Church, Part 6 — First Vision

Our whole strength rests on the valid­i­ty of that [First] vision. It either occurred or it did not occur. If it did not, then this work is a fraud. If it did, then it is the most impor­tant and won­der­ful work under the heav­ens.” – Gor­don B. Hinck­ley, The Mar­velous Foun­da­tion of Our Faith 1.…

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Thanks TSCC, thanks for nothing

I would just to like thank the TSCC for ruin­ing my mar­riage by pub­lish­ing the essays. Because of the essays I now think that my won­der­ful wife of 11 years is an indoc­tri­nat­ed sheeple who won’t face the facts that it is all a big lie. I think she is stay­ing because she is to…

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I’m offended, I want to sin and I’m happy to admit it.

I’m offend­ed: that LDS Inc. is more LDS Inc. than church. by racism by homo­pho­bia by misog­y­ny by sex­ism that’s harm­ful to both men and women by sex­u­al per­ver­sion that my son was taught to be a lit­er­al arm and head-chop­ping war­rior for a sup­pos­ed­ly all pow­er­ful being that JS, a wom­an­iz­er, sex­u­al preda­tor, child…

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Unexpected Results

Three weeks ago, I was a true believ­er. I wasn’t the best at church atten­dance, but I would look for­ward to the days I could go and I would sit, rapt and eager, lis­ten­ing to the lessons and talks. I read the scrip­tures. I have a large library of Nib­ley, Tal­mage, etc… things con­sid­ered “deep”…

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Top Ten Quotes from the “Boise Rescue” Fireside

On June 13th, Apos­tle Oaks and His­to­ri­an Tur­ley gave a fire­side at my stake in Ida­ho “to answer some faith­ful ques­tions and to min­is­ter to some dis­abling doubts.” In this fire­side, the cou­ple respond­ed to sev­er­al ques­tions that are most rel­e­vant to those that agree with Den­ver Snuffer and Rock Water­man. In my view, that…

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Response to “How Does Gay Marriage Hurt Us? Here’s How”

I have seen sev­er­al friends post the arti­cle “How Does Gay Mar­riage Hurt Us? Here’s How.” and found it ter­ri­bly lack­ing. Here are the key points it makes and some of my thoughts on these. “How does our mar­riage hurt you?” they ask. Well, I can think of one sig­nif­i­cant way it will hurt us:…

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Going Clear correlaries to LDS teachings

This last week­end I watched the doc­u­men­tary Going Clear. I have heard and read some about Sci­en­tol­ogy before the doc­u­men­tary, and so I knew to expect there to be some strong sim­i­lar­i­ties between Sci­en­tol­ogy and Mor­monism. I rec­om­mend every­one, faith­ful or not, see the doc­u­men­tary. It does a great job of walk­ing through from the…

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Carson Calderwood’s Leave And Leave It Alone

I’ve been fol­low­ing Car­son Calderwood’s sto­ry from a dis­tance, and I find it to be such a sad exam­ple of the Church push­ing out peo­ple who are try­ing hard to con­tribute in a pos­i­tive way. I rec­om­mend all go and lis­ten to the Mor­mon Sto­ries episodes with Car­son and Maris­sa, and also go read Carson’s…

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Leaving

Writ­ten in Jan­u­ary, 2012: In Decem­ber of 2011, my hus­band, Justin, and I respect­ful­ly resigned from our call­ings and stopped going to church. It’s been a long, tir­ing, enlight­en­ing process. I’ll start with the day that real­ly got us going down this path. It was a Sun­day in May or June of 2011. I got…

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About The Author

On a per­son­al lev­el, my life has been an ongo­ing search for the Truth. It has been the pri­ma­ry moti­va­tion­al force in my life, along with my love for my fam­i­ly. That search led me into the Church many years ago, and ulti­mate­ly it led me out. My heart is the same; my desire to…

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